Imagine...

Imagine with me for just a moment. Imagine just won the lottery (along with imagining pretend you also play the lottery), the BIG one and you have lots of "money" headed your way. It's really happening this time and nothing is going to get in your way. You are immediately so excited that you can't even stand it, you can't believe you have FINALLY won! (You have been playing for a VERY LONG TIME and patiently, sometimes impatiently waiting) You double check your ticket with the number on the television to make sure they really do match, and they do.

You start making plans on what you are going to do with the "money" that's headed your way. Lots of great and wonderful times are on their way. There will be vacations, laughing and lots of memory making. You start making plans and room for the wonderful things that are to come.

Finally the day comes to go collect your "money" and you are told "We made a mistake, you really don't have the winning numbers" and just like that it's all over. No "sorry" or anything. You are just left there standing completely empty handed and expected to be ok with it.

That's how I feel right now. Like I just won the Million Dollar Jackpot and then it was taken away, only in my real world it wasn't "money" it was my future family. I guess the third time wasn't a charm after all....